*shortbreath*nosebleed*faint*die*

this is just KILLED me!!!

u just have killed me *melts*

thank you for making me feels younger everyday ^o^.

i stopped buying his magazine few months ago, budgeting. he he, but how can i resist this????? uwaaaa, gonna call kino in a minutes.

hiroshiiiiii ♥ ♥ ♥ … shiku shiku shiku

last night one of my students asked me,

“just math and science?? how bout geog and history??”

a ha ha ha, i just looked at her and smiled. adoiiii, i’m sorry, but i don’t have enuf time for that. seriously. kore mo seippai desu yo. giri giri genkai desu!!!

but of course, i’m happy, when my student themselves asked me that. cos the one who set up the tuition in the first place was the mom, but when a student asked for more, it means that i somehow manage to help them in study and they realised that. it makes me happy. it’s worth the time that i spent for them.

in other point, it also made me really really think that i’m suitable for teaching. i know how to explain things. i know how to make the study interesting. student usually said than i am strict but they like me. i think ^^. it’s normal to hear “cik roha garang” but it’s rare to hear ‘tak suka lah cik roha’ , he he he . anyway, my point is, mayb i just shud pursue teaching. ha ha ha. i don’t know how many times i said this, but …. i dunno. i just don’t feel like it. haih. mayb i shud just place a bet on life. gamble a bit. like, if i don’t pass the ptd, then i will apply for kpli (do they still have it???) or slab or whatever ….

mayb i’m just a coward. i want a complete reassurance in life, stable income. that’s y i never thinking of quitting this boring job. if i just have  just a little courage, i can just quit then concentrate crazily on tuition or sewing. i have skills, i should be fine!! …right????

haih, jinsei tte, muzukashi. the one that look so strong outside mayb just really weak inside. we have no way on knowing that.

but one thing i’m sure of, weak or strong, there’s no right or wrong. in the end, as long as we happy, then that’s good enuf. because good will let to better. ma~~ problem, uncertainty, sad .. that’s all part of life.

what’s the point of this entry anyway. ha ha ha. mayb i just like to write LOL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAMIYA HIROSHI

♥♥♥ I LUV YOU ♥♥♥

i tried to join a community today cos i wanna download a subbed video of arashi. they welcome everybody to join their community but they ask us to answer a few simple questions 1st.

In order to be a member you will have to answer these questions :
1-What is the exact date of ARASHI’s debut?
2-Name the rewards they have got from Oricon in 2009
3-Name 5 songs that’s being put in CD 3 of ALL THE BEST? ” 2 out of 5 are fair enough , it would be better if you could mention all the 5 XD , but 2 will do the job ^^ “
4-Describe ARASHI in one word
5-Who’s your ichiban ?

the only question that is hard for me to answer is question no 1, cos seriously, i don’t even remember hiroshi’s birthday. but i can still answer all the question if i want, cos the answers are everywhere. but i choose not too.

that’s the hardest way that i came across so far to get into a community. i remember one community that i wanted to join ask me to answer ‘y i wanna join their community’ and i said, because i wanna download something. she said, fair enuf, and let me join. so if that above community wanna make it that difficult, mayb they don’t want me, a lazy fan as their member, so they better off without me.

i never upload anything not mine on the internet. i downloaded all the subbed videos because the owner wanna share them, so i gladly took them. i also make sure i thank them. but i’m not going to beg them to let me into their group just for a subbed video. it’s not that i don’t wanna make friend but some ppl are just that, they don’t really know what to say even it’s on the internet. i was one of them. i always like to read comments cos i like the way they wrote, fully convey their feeling and meaning. which is something that hard for me to do. i’m am a better speaker than a writer. u mayb don’t believe me but it’s actually took me a long time to reply a comment, other that thank you i mean. it’s just hard!!!

but anyway, ha ha, lost my point already. what i wanna say is, why they have to make it so hard. if u wanna share them, just share them. it’s okay to ask ppl to joint ur community 1st, but why so hard???? haih ……. of cos, it’s your work, but still …..

may you all be happy, cos i’m disappointed.

my office has started to record our daily task, timely. warghhhhhhhhhhh, mendokuseeeeeeeeee~~~~~~ imagine,

7.55-8.05    Morning briefing
8.05-8.15     RMA stock check
8.15-9.45     Start check
9.45-9.50     Toilet (muahahahahahhahahah)

ape ingat kitorg nie robot????? xde keja nak buat????? HEH!!! fortunately my boss said it’s gonna be for 2 weeks, mayb?? i understand that they (yeah .. that atuk) wanna make a precise calculation on how much outputs we can get in a month. he did the calculation before but he thinks we can do more. beside, he complained that my operators ‘talk’ during OT, so if they don’t talk, they don’t need any OT. seriously, we are no robots. dem it. try sitting at our place. or try this, never go smoking for the whole day. can u do that???? warghhhhhhhh

i’m not really angry about the stupid daily job record. but i’m not satisfied with his complaint. i was here last saturday, doing ot with my operators. they talked, of course, but they did their work. we’ve been pressured about output almost everyday so we really tried hard to achieve it. least they can do is let us have a happy place to work. haih …

sakit jiwa!!!!

and yes, from arashi member of course. else i wouldn’t even write it here. and it’s SHO!!!!!! SHOking Sakurai Sho!!!!

i personally didn’t like nude shot. or gay shot. or les shot. cause i don’t see the point. what for?? everytime there are this kinda shot, everyone just gonna go hentai. rite???? owh, u denied it?? yeah rite!!!

the only half bare shot that i like is the one with artistic value. and it’s hard to pull it off. the expression must be reaaallly good. really humble. the kinda face that didn’t say that “i have a good body and i know it” .

fans are ecstatic now. perfect body, beautiful body, they said. ha ha. mayb. but i like him more when he look sharp and smart doing news, or relax and happy doing arashi. i like man with shirt on. and pant too. cause CLOTHES ARE GOOD!! they make u look good.

anyway, if i told that i don’t care, i’d be lying to myself. cause i do feel a tad disappointed over this. just a bit. beside, he was saying that he himself was SHOck when he got the offer. so he wanted to challenge himself.

i basically don’t really mind what my idol wanna do, even i don’t really agree. cause, they have life too. so, i hope u are satisfied.

mum called me few times last week. dad too. they were frantic. bro told them that chee told him that she couldn’t catch up with study. she was thinking that mayb if she quit now, there won’t be so much to pay back. next i know, she told mum that she is coming back to malaysia. on monday. which monday, they don’t know. they asked me to try calling her. i did, but no answer. last nite, dad called me, saying that she already on the bus, on the way back to kelantan. and now she’s home.

i knew all along that it’s not about study. it’s about love. she stressed out about her relation with her ‘apparent’ bf. chee, when she love, she go crazy. to the point that u don’t believe it with her attitude, her attire. parah. and there’s not much we can do cause she is stubborn.

i didn’t talk to her yet. i don’t plan to. i just called my brother and turaya, asking them to try talk to her. advice her.  since she probably listen to them. i called her friend too, asking them to help her. i tried to calm my mum, cause i know how hurt she is right now. this happened to chee twice already.

i should feel, hurt. i should rite? she didn’t tell me anything. not even asked me to get her at the airport. or buy her bus ticket. or ….

i just don’t feel like i matter much to her. that’s how bad a sister i am to her. even her roommate told me to be nice to her. jgn garang sangat, she said. i don’t know how to talk to her anymore. i don’t understand, y i can talk to anybody but not to my sister. as far as i know, i accepted all the bad things that she said about me. i just don’t know how to show my concern. i do care, dem it!!!!!

will a week be enuf to get her back on her feet????

last month i got a mail saying they have increased my credit limit, again. this is the second time they increased it without my asking. and starting new year, i noticed that i couldn’t use my card anymore. in my mind i thought, that was weird but i just ignored it since i have another card. and today while i was cleaning (^^;;) my room, i found two unopened enveloped, inside are two new card. i was dem busy i didn’t noticed them before XDDDD

i’s platinum now ….

ha ha ha, kowaiiiii. how much money they want me to spend???? serious, with my current salary, i couldn’t apply a credit for that amount!!!

it’s really scary. gotta be reeeeeeeeaaaalyyyy careful from now on *-*. scary scary.

alhamdulillah .. lulus PAC. next is interview. uwaaaa ~ ganbare ore!!!

finally. got my internet back. after sooooo many fon calls, waitings and BETRAYALS!!! seriously. this was the 1st time i faced this problem. technician called, said he will come, but he didn’t. 4 times!!!!!

i lost my wireless modem since before i went to london. that was like, around 2 months ago rite. the modem went broken, just like that. dunno what had happened. so i just replaced the broken telekom modem with my own one. LAN one. since i rarely use my laptop for internet, and since i was very bz until recently, i just let the modem problem there. since i already reported that prob to telekom. so, few days before new year i called telekom again to asked about this prob. oh wow, they just completely forget my report. marvellous!!!! so i opened another report, which got me 4 times of betrayal(the technician that promised to come didn’t even call to say he can’t make it), about 10 calls from telekom staffs asking whether my modem is ok or not yet (how the hell it gonna be okay on their own), and lies. obviously they lied to me. among them. this one called saying he’ll come. the same day another one called saying there were no stock for new modem. hello, if u wanna lie, lie smart ok. cos i’ll know!!!!

i actually had to went back home around 4 today cos they said they only can come at that time. so i pleaded my boss to let me. i arrived exactly at 4, waited 10 minutes, and call the PIC to asked where the hell the supposed technician were. i specifically told them i had to get back to the office. the guy called a few minutes later saying he already come but i wasn’t home yet. oh yeah, nice one. y didn’t u call me if u already come. PUH LEASSSSSSSSS!!!

well, he solved my problem. and another staff call me asking whether everything was ok or not yet. i nicely said, “FINALLY, the technician came”.

haih. sabar itu separuh dari iman. dan orang yang bersabar InsyaAllah akan pat kejayaan.