this yr, i was soooo bz with classes and sewing, that i barely notice ramadhan passed away, just like that. this yr was the saddest ramadhan for me. i felt hopeless and guilty, becos i was soo bz with ‘duniawi’ and couldn’t make use of ramadhan. but, alhamdulillah, raya this yr was the best so far.
i had to spent quite ‘a money’ on car before raya. the car battery went out, just like that. or mayb i didn’t noticed when the battery got weaker and weaker. luckily, it went out near a workshop, but unfortunately for me, i think they powwed me because i had no choice. dem. how much a car battery at ur place??? the got me RM180!!!!!! wayyyy expensive cos when i asked a workshop at my hometown, they said it’s only RM110. then on the way home, at Gua Musang (Pahi i think), there was a sound when i stepped on the break pedal. ha ha. must be the disk break. luckily again, it’s morning already (cos i started the journey home at midnite) so there were workshops around. i stopped at one, asked them to check, changed it, costed me another RM50. good thing that the disk bleed at kelantan. it’s cheaper. even when i when to service my car, it’s only costed me RM110. cheap!!!!
anyway, aside from that, i got home a day before raya. this yr, i brought back sewing machine with me cos suraya’s kebaya hadn’t finished yet. so i spent malam raya sewing her kebaya. ha ha ha. a way to escape from making roti jala. but my mom made the usual nasi dagang and my dad bought sate. that’s enuf i think. but the thing was, there’s no usual fight ^^. if i remembered correctly, every raya there must be a fight or two, which in my opinion shouldn’t happened in the 1st place. just a small matter, but y they had to fight. so i basically prepare my mental everytime i went home. i didn’t blame any of my family, because i know how much problem especially for my mom to bear. but, seriously, this yr, everyone so understanding. even when my mom scolded my bro, he just listened and helped us out. my sis as usual, abnormal, but we ignored her, as much as we could. ha ha. there were no point pointing how abnormal her point of view were, emm .. are, ha ha, cos .. well, basically, i don’t think she will understand anyway. lol ~~~and cos i got home a day b4 raya, i got to spend many days after raya at home. with no fight, just laze around at home, watching anime or dorama, occasionally had guests, quite a perfect way to relax and rest. and i got to see my mom and dad’s face.
i have to learn to love and accept my family more .. and more ~~~